Anyway, what really reminds me of me at any age, is that she wants to play with fire. She enjoys playing with fire... Hoping and striving for a day when she can so successfully play with fire that she doesn't get burned.
Her fire is a blade across her wrist; she wants to stare her biggest struggle in the face, have blade to her wrist and not cut herself.
It sounds ridiculous, but have I not done the same thing? Don't we all do the same thing to a certain extent?... How much can I get away with? How far can I push this?
And that's why it keeps happening.
When faced with battling addiction, one cannot expect to hold a needle to their arm and choose not to indulge, one must choose not to indulge in a thought process that leads to seeing or holding the needle.
No matter the struggle, the key is community.
Community = health, balance, and honesty.
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